I was teaching aikido to homeschool families when I found both a local zen practice and that my son has muscular dystrophy. Over time, the “Club Aikido” Google Group faded and a personal blog, “Inexhaustible Things,” grew as my attention moved toward intensive zen practice. It wasn’t too long afterward that I created a blog in support of the zen center. Writing on Inexhaustible Things faded in favor of contributing to the new site.
As my personal focus was shifting toward exploring zen principles within the context of aikido practice, when some conflicting notions surrounding the zen center’s site arose, I started the Sword Mountain Aikido & Zen site and put my energy there. Though I started with the intention of building an aikido practice at the zen center, the stars did not align. I returned to a nomadic aikido practice while zen focus shifted toward applications of zen in everyday life. What I was writing was off-point, but it wouldn’t hold me back. Whatever tab was open, I would write, but it felt less comfortable as thoughts diverged from the purpose I had set for the forum.
180-degress away, I was writing about technology on a site that was meant to have a business focus. Writing about technical challenges, uncertainty, unfinished work in progress, and so forth may be fine for technology, but may not be the hallmarks of successful marketing. Over there, I would actively not write rather than write the wrong things. Over there, I deleted more than I posted.
So it seems fitting then that the first post on this new blog should point out the irony of this very sentence. Zen and aikido practice can provide intense insight how our minds work, sometimes by inducing severe, stressful conditions. Wondering whether or where to publish a blog post? If you look carefully, you can see the live blade… maybe even who’s holding it.
Sword Mountain’s posts have been imported in bulk and appear mostly intact. The site itself is still there. The more businesslike site is still there too. They may have their uses. Near-term, though, I expect that you’ll find most of my posts here first. As for the old ones, if you see a problem, let me know 🙂